Sometimes you have days when everywhere you look you see something that makes you smile or you are so aware of all of the good things that you have in your life that you are grateful for. Today isn’t one of those days for me.
Today is one of those days when I have woken up anxious and with a stomach that is stress tumultuous and with tears that seem to come of their own choosing and often.
A day so full of bleak and grayness, sadness and missing that the smile is smaller and harder to find but it’s there… brought out by a jewel of a moment of hugs and comfort … and gratitude that I have that in my life.
Ok, so the best laid plans… we all know that saying ;)…
On track and getting the days of smiles all in line and up to date 🙂
Day 4… A chilly hike with my boys gave me the chance to enjoy a very wintery expanse of beach; ice on the sand is something that always makes me smile – crunchy sand and natures glitter!
Day 5… Still with the boys and as always, the check on the status of the never-ending coconut – stay tuned for a full blog entry on that fun 😉
Day 6… new additions to my family and how it brings a smile to my face to see a furry loved one peeking around my laptop again!
Day 7… waking this morning to my new furry mates (Lady Leap and Princess Frog); how can you not smile when the first thing you see in the morning is 2 little bundles of kitten cuteness curled up together; add in the purring as soon as you touch them and it’s a recipe for a warm fuzzy morning. Yes, cheesy and sappy but who doesn’t love kittens!
Smiles and happiness today because I am blessed enough to have people in my life that I care deeply enough to call my chosen family… and doubly blessed that they have chosen me as well to be part of theirs!
The saying “blood is thicker than water” doesn’t do justice to the truth that the people we chose to bring close to our hearts have special meaning. Whether right or wrong, there is a certain sense of obligation to love and care for the people that we are born into as family…if we’re lucky, then we like them too… but that’s not a certainty – the odds of actually liking and wanting to spend time with the family you are born to aren’t great. You have genetics or nurturing in common but that’s about it. All too often, families are groups of people who tolerate each other because they “have to”.
Yet with chosen family…we’re able to connect with a person or people that we share so much with… and build that connection and nurture a bond… and chose to invite them into our lives and our hearts and call them “ours”.
As I close today I smile because of that blessing.
Smiles started early today after I picked up Son 1 from work at 7am and a conversation with him, Son 2 and myself ensued at home regarding kitten names. I’m getting 2 female kittens tomorrow and made the mistake/genius move to ask for their assistance in name options.
As I should have expected, it turned ridiculous quickly ;). Son 1’s idea to name them names of colours that they aren’t resulted in the somewhat catchy “Sanguine and Periwinkle”…. then onto names that are decidedly non-sweet and kitten-like: “Sadist and Malevolence”…. I actually kind of like Malevolence, hmm
The agreed upon standard now is that they should have titles and full names, including middle and last names so the options are almost endless…
A day of smiles, laughter and connecting… the first 365smile… One of my happy places in life! There’s nothing like being with someone who you can share everything with…and come away with the best hair ever!
I’ve said for a while now that it’s time to put the focus back into finding and experiencing joy again. A text conversation with one of my sons the other day was like a smack upside the head… a simple idea: the “big” happy moments in life come by few and far between but every day pretty much has at least a few little things that make you smile (or at the very least make you think “hmmmm” in an amused way!)… and it’s the accumulation of all those little things that bring the most joy to our lives.
An evening spent with people I care deeply for – laughing and talking, snuggles and holding hands together … reminding me that an easy and fun evening can be simple and enjoyed. That I can still feel what I wasn’t sure I could anymore.
Living through grieving and at the point of moving forward now sometimes I lose sight of those little things.
So, in the spirit of life being lived with smiles and laughter again it’s project time 🙂
365smiles… everyday a picture or a writing of something that brings a smile to my face or laughter to my day… because joy should be shared 🙂