i doubt me
all that is me
i hide me
away from me
i try to make myself small
so small that i can’t been seen
because i’m not anything
worth seeing
i believe this
i am this
i don’t let myself
shine
because my light
is wrong
and should be filtered
darkened
not exploding for all
to see
but hidden
where it deserves
to be
in its wrongness
i believe this
i am this
i live inside
my walls
where i should
stay
where i belong
people who are
morebetterwholevaluable
go out there
beyond their limits
not me
i reach my fingers past
the boundary
of me
and
run back to hide
away where i belong
i believe this
i am this
my power
strength
beauty
bravery
resilience
brilliance
waits for me
to release
her but i
hold her back
because
she is stupid to believe
that she is
all those things
and more
that even she
has no idea of
i scare me
i am afraid of
who i hide away
of who says yes
when i scream no
fear of who i
can be
who i am
terrifies me
and it should
scare me
because i am
all that i don’t believe
that i am
whisky sweet 