all that i am

 

i doubt me

 

all that is me

i hide me

away from me  

i try to make myself small

so small that i can’t been seen

because i’m not anything 

worth seeing

 

i believe this

i am this

 

i don’t let myself 

shine

because my light

is wrong

and should be filtered 

darkened

not exploding for all 

to see

but hidden

where it deserves

to be

 

in its wrongness

 

i believe this 

i am this

 

i live inside

my walls

where i should 

stay

where i belong

people who are

morebetterwholevaluable

go out there

beyond their limits

 

not me

 

i reach my fingers past

the boundary

of me

and 

run back to hide

away where i belong

 

i believe this

i am this

 

my power

strength

beauty

bravery

resilience

brilliance

waits for me

to release

her but i 

hold her back

 

because 

she is stupid to believe

that she is 

all those things

and more

that even she 

has no idea of

 

i scare me

 

i am afraid of 

who i hide away

of who says yes

when i scream no

fear of who i 

can be

who i am

terrifies me

 

and it should

scare me

 

because i am 

all that i don’t believe

that i am

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